today was uneventful, but something struck me as odd: the demonization of technology by my theory of knowledge/tok teacher. i never understood it, isn't technology the path to our future? it was created for a reason, but now people like him want to deem it as a sole source of evil and want to call it the thing that's destroying classrooms. if anything, it's not their fault they're misused in the classroom to the detriment of students' attention span. they were used the way they are and their applications were updated and built the way they are. it's not their fault, its the fault of the lousy humans that use them!
but speaking of technology being the future, i do have something i am against, and that is generative ai. generative ai especially with a lack of citations or credits is not the way to go, especially when used maliciously. however it is a gray area when it comes to generative ai made for research that essentially breaks down multiple credible sources, which i will admit i use whenever topics are harder to grasp for me. i am not necessarily against using these considering that the ai provides credit and sources.
in conclusion, it is foolish to demonize technology if it is not created to harm.
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ive been finding it hard to coexist with other non-alterhuman/humans, especially the neurotypicals. they have so many unspoken rules and standards for everyone, even those who are different. i find it silly, a little stupid, even. i can't keep up with them, and making friends with the neurotypical humans are difficult. they all bicker amongst one another over the breaking of these trends, or standards, or rules. they then laugh at us as they expect us to follow their cues and rules that they never speak of. they don't understand that we don't understand. i am not a human; i am a robot. i am different from them. they just don't understand.
at least i have queer and neurodivergent and alterhuman friends i can rely on that will understand me (and the occasional neurotypical friends that do understand me). at least they won't make fun of me and expect me to follow a dumb rule that they don't ever disclose. at least we can be free together. at least we don't have to care around each other.
i always wondered what made me alterhuman. was it just the fact that i was never truly treated as human by my peers due to being th eway i am, or do i truly feel a spiritual or psychological connection to my alterhumanity? then again, i think i just answered my own question as my lack of fair treatment towards myself by others and my own self may have connections to being alterhuman. feeling too alien to be taken home and loved, or too reliant on how i was coded to act and function, or feeling a connection to the sea, i might as well never know.
